Full-Blown Agony: A Personal Fight With the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a overcast weekday morning in September 2016. I worked as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a intense sensation erupted behind my right eye. It was followed by quick stabs, like lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the pain eased and then returned with increased force. Four times that day I left a teaching assistant with activities and ran to the school bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I tried ibuprofen, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The headaches returned repeatedly that fall, and once more in spring, soon establishing an annual cycle. The autumn months were the most severe, then the late winter. I could predict the routine: aura in the shower, early twinges on the commute, full-on agony in the classroom by mid-morning. In late 2019, a GP finally referred me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

This condition often begin with severe pain around a single eye that lasts up to several hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 individuals suffer by the disorder, and males are more often affected. Attacks usually begin with sudden, severe pain around a single eye that peaks within minutes and continues for up to three hours. Episodes come in clusters, every day or several times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or facial sweating. There exists the episodic form, which arrives in periodic bouts; some patients have chronic cluster headaches, defined by the absence of extended symptom-free periods.

What connects patients is the intensity. One study scored the sensation at 9.7 10, higher than bone fractures or pancreatitis. Another found a significant percentage of cluster patients reported thoughts of self-harm amid attacks; the number fell to four percent when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a long-term sufferer from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her episodes started when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the floor and hit my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through childhood. Alcohol in her teens, similar to several causes, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her school leaving party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often interpreted her attacks as drunken behavior. Understanding finally came from her father and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after relocating, but often concealed her condition. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to time off during episodes. Her definitive diagnosis came in 2002 at a national hospital.

Still, the failure to plan daily activities around unpredictable pain took its toll. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her family during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the simple liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been described throughout history. “The first description of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write experts in a book on the topic. They linked the ailment to an evil entity who afflicted his victims' heads.

Historical healing records suggest bizarre remedies for what some observers would describe as a migraine. In the middle ages, migraine was identified as a separate condition, with treatments ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the first detailed description of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “suffering with a very severe headache happening and disappearing daily at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only formally recognised by global medical committees in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a key blood vessel that supplies blood to the head. Leading experts in diagnosing the condition note this.

In 1998, scientists published the results of a research project for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and observed the episodes in a imaging machine. The data, featured in a major journal, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they recovered.

In spite of such advances, identification remains slow. One man's attacks started in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he had four surgeries before eventually being diagnosed in 2014, after a doctor researched his symptoms.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosing and managing happen because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and low, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He proceeds by ruling out other common head pain conditions, such as tension-type headache, before confirming cluster headaches. A detailed history is crucial: on which side do signs occur? For how long? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Certain features such as tearing, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help verify cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to specialist centers. But many first arrive to A&E or are given unsuitable therapies.

A charity trustee, 78, has suffered from the condition for most of her adult life, although she has been free from an attack since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth extracted because dental professionals misunderstood her pain. She thinks the dental profession still need greater awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was she who responded. The author recalls calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a reassuring volunteer talked them through oxygen treatment and drugs until the attack passed.

National guidelines on management advise that patients are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine medication delivered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive options include a blood pressure medication, which apparently soothes the bouts of some individuals.

But leading specialists argue the official guidelines need updating to reflect a more defined clinical process and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, timing is critical: “The length of the bout determines the approach.” Short bouts with infrequent episodes are managed with acute treatment only. Longer or more severe bouts require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes paired with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an procedure into the area of the head where the discomfort is that decreases nerve signals.

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